Party of 1

Ms. Hartsfield we have your table ready right over here for your pity party - party of 1. 

Geez, I'm not sure what my deal has been over the last few days, but I have just been in a funk!  For the most part I think I have been able to hide it from everyone around me, but on the inside I have been tearing myself apart.  I'm sure I'm not the only person who does this or has these moments, but they are just odd for me.  Normally, I am a pretty much a happy chick.  You know the kind that is laughing, smiling, talking it up, but not lately.

When this happens I find myself questioning myself in every single aspect of my life.

• Am I a good person? Am I nice enough to people?
• Am I a good daughter, sister, granddaughter, aunt?
• Am I a good friend?  Am I a selfish friend?
• Am I good employee? Co-worker?
• Am I skinny enough?  Am I in shape?
• Do guys find me attractive?  If, not why?
• Did I choose the right path for my life?
• What could I do better in my daily life to make me a better person?

You get the point.  Right?  Because I tell you those are not the only questions that go thru my mind.  I am telling you it becomes a CRAZY whirlwind in my noggin.  One thing just leads to another!!  To the point I drive myself up the wall with it. 

I have pin pointed it to when I have A LOT going on in my life & my plate seems to be overflowing all over the table I get out of whack.  I am a person who NEVER wants to disappoint anyone & when I am going in 500 directions I also feel like someone or something is going to get left out or off.  Which will end of up a disappointment of some sort.

I know I will be fine.  I know I will get out of the funk.  I know it takes time.

I know there is light at the end of the tunnel.